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Not much to report this week. The vaporizer is helping me sleep, so that's good.
Other than that, I discovered The Outer Limits on streaming, so I've been binge watching old episodes of deeply weird sci-fi.
Finally, J and I managed to get in a game of Age of Sigmar this weekend.
All in all, not a lot to report but a decent enough week.
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So, let's see... the winter storm has come and gone (for now at least). We got a lot of snow, which shut down the roads around here for a couple of days. My guys were stuck in the house for the front half of the week, which I think threw off any hope of me or the cats figuring out this semester's schedule for a while yet. Otherwise, we weren't hit that hard honestly (touch wood). The power stayed on. We have heat, phones and internet.
On the downside, I am having a hell of a time sleeping. I think the light bouncing off the snow (we still have mountains of snow) and the dry air are ganging up on me. I sleep for about an hour and a half and then get up, have a big drink of water and have to get back to sleep again. So, I've been even more, more exhausted then usual. The muscle aches from the new meds don't help either.
Last night, J set up a humidified in my room which I think helped me sleep a little better.
I'm also realizing that I've been stressing out about things and I need to put them down again. As I write this, I find myself thinking that I had so many things to deal with around mom's passing that I got used to dealing with things. I know it's been months since the memorial. It's all pretty much done. I think I might just be flailing around looking for the things I "need to do next." There aren't any. J has been running the household successfully for years now. She doesn't need me bugging her.
I just need to put that weight down again and focus on my health.
I can do that.
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Quiet week really. I started some new medication for my cholesterol, which I think is causing muscle aches. That's one of the possible side effects and I have been feeling achy. Fortunately, it just encourages to keep up with my chair-yoga because that helps.
I built a couple of minis. I really need to remember to take some pictures of my new painted ones and post them on here. I should make a note for myself... brain like a sieve.
Of course, the big news is the huge winter storm. Actually, here... it's snow. I mean, it's not a minor amount of snow. I'm not sure how much but it's up to the bumper on J's van. So maybe 8"-12" ... it's certainly enough that Vermont road crews would be working overtime. Indiana road crews have declared a state of emergency and essentially closed the county. Nice weather for the guy who doesn't have to go outside.
The snow looks pretty. The power is still on (touch wood), so we have things like heat, light and the ability to cook... plus internet and phones.
We're OK (again, touch wood).
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So, big news of this week... doctor's appointment with a new doctor.
I'm sure I've mentioned that my much appreciated old doctor retired and I got a new doctor. Looking back over recent posts, a couple weeks ago I mentioned that I was unhappy with said new doctor because he wasn't seeing me as often as I felt I needed to be seen.
Well, I finally decided to do something about it. I called the doctors office and made a new appointment for this past week. I was still angry with the new doctor but I decided I wanted to give him one more chance, to prove he could get it right. That lasted a couple of days, with me still being angry with him, until I finally sat down and talked things out with J. I realized that, no, I didn't really have to give him a second chance especially since the way I felt, I was just going to yell at him and change doctors anyway. So I called the office again and changed doctors. They didn't argue or debate me about it. They just did it... and they made sure my appointment with the new doctor was the same day.
So, on Friday I saw my new new doctor. He looked over my records and paid attention to them. He asked a lot of questions and listened to my answers. He scheduled a ridiculous number of tests, making it clear that he really wants to understand what's going on with me and develop an informed plan of care.
I like him. He annoyed me, but I like him. Knock wood, fingers crossed, this one might actually work out. (Knock wood again)
So, that was pretty much the week and probably next. I got really worn out after that appointment and I'm resting now.
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Well, that was another kind of tough week, honestly.
Wednesday was the one year anniversary of mom's passing. What are you supposed to do for that? It feels like there should be some kind of social ritual marking and remembering someone's passing... but there isn't. I mean, we have the funeral or memorial or whatever, and then we're just supposed to move on. Some of us an All Hallows Eve or Day of the Dead tradition to honor all those who have passed, but socially I'm not aware of any specific traditions honoring an individual passing... and truthfully, I'd never thought much about it before. I remember my Grampa Ted's passing because it was so close to All Hallows, but I would have to look up my Gramma Cathy's. I don't really remember when my dad's folks passed. I guess mom just feels different because she's mom and I want to do something to remember her.
In the end, it's my mom... so I think good food, art and movies are called for.
So, pulled from the Cathy Collection (her collection of DVDs), I pulled The Equalizer 1, 2 & 3. Three movies staring Denzel Washington as Robert McCall. The basic plot... bad guy does bad thing within line of sight of Washington/McCall and he calmly and politely gives them a chance to make amends. Then, when the laugh in his race, he calmly and politely proceeds to reduce said bad guy to broken and/or dead bad guy. Repeat, several times, over three movies... and no, it never gets old. What can I say, mom loved movies like that.
Also, she has a bunch of Jane Austin movies.
What? It's my mom. Does this really surprise you?
In other news, I've actually be managing to stick to my chair-yoga this week (ok, I missed two days... one for a trip to get blood drawn and other because I did other exercise stuff that day). It feels good and I like it. That even with J's cat giving me a look of withering contempt as if to say "you know, cat's invented yoga and you're doing it wrong."
Cats.
Well, I have more movies to watch.
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OK, can we talk for a minute about the Venezuela thing? Because, honestly, this scares me. As of me writing this, in the early hours of yesterday morning the United States military launched a military strike on Venezuela and forcibly abducted it's president and his wife. President Trump has claimed that we will "run the country" for the near future, which his cabinet is already walking back, and that we will be in "the oil business."
The whole thing is a political nightmare, but the entire world is basically holding it's breath because they know Trump is basically insane and will not follow any rule, law or norm that does not directly benefit him. To make matters worse, the deposed president of Venezuela is basically a dictator who, I believe, lost the last election and stayed in power anyway... so it's not like a lot of people are leaping to his defense personally. It's a bad situation and it's just the start. This is only going to get worse.
So, there's that.
How am I doing? I've had better weeks. I have this drum beat of anger at my new doctor, because I don't trust him and I don't believe he is giving me the care I need. Basically this because I haven't seen him and won't until March, and because the new hospital that owns him is a greedy corporation that actively is against providing health care. Also, I'm mad at my old doctor for retiring and dropping me in this shit. I hate it and I feel like there is nothing I can do about it right now.
Also, I'm depressed, exhausted, in pain, sick to my stomach, can't sleep and, yeah, generally having a bad week.
So, 2026, not off to a great start.
On the plus side, I'm trying to remember to do my chair yoga, and that definitely helps.
Good days and bad days. Good days and bad days.
Onward
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Hope you had happy holidays and are looking forward to a Happy New Year. I think we all need one.
Well, I've had a big week. My anniversary, Yule and J's birthday all in one week. It's been good.
Every day this month, I've gotten up in the night and looked at the Christmas tree, lite and beautiful, and felt good. I'm going to miss that when we take it down.
But listen to me, being melancholy, when really I have had a pretty good week. Got some good gifts, spent some good time with family, even got to see a couple of old friends who came down for J's birthday.
Yeah, all in all, a pretty good week.
Happy holidays
Onward
