Happy New Year (Week Ending 1/1)

 Well, 2022 was an interesting trip down De'Nile. 

Really, looking back over this blog and glancing through my health journal... it's been illuminating.

I started convinced I was getting better and even made solid plans to return to work part-time. I honestly had every expectation that I'd be working full-time before the end of the year. Yeah, that didn't work out.

I've mentioned a few times my famous chart. Here it is... 2022 year in review. You can pretty clearly see the whole "didn't work out" of it.

Honestly, if there are two real takeaways from last year the first is the I am an idiot. No matter how many times I told myself "don't do that" or "well, as long as I don't do that I'll be fine" ... I still did it. I insisted that I was "fine." I was, after all, not working too hard. I was only working until I reached the point where I physically collapsed and couldn't go on. (Pro-tip - If you are working until you physically collapse and can't go on... you are working too hard!) Even knowing this and knowing I was still doing it, not only did I not stop, I continued to insist I was fine.

My second big takeaway is that, on the balance, I am actually pretty optimistic. Yeah, I have my moments when I get down. Everyone does and when you're sick constantly, it's hard not to. I have good days and bad days... and I keep working toward the good ones and getting through the bad ones. I'm not going to give up.

So, here I am today. I've stopped working myself into the ground. Yeah, that means I've stopped doing paid work, full stop, but I've got to. I honestly can't work right now. Now I need to focus on me and figuring out how to live under my current conditions. I'm still working on figuring that out but I'll get there.

Onwards.

Joyous Yule (Week ending 12/25)

 I hope everyone had a joyous Yule and is looking forward to a Happy New Year.

We managed to avoid the worst of the Great Winter Freeze of '22, thankfully. Juno managed to get all of her essential errands done before the worst of the cold hit and we just battened down and stayed inside through the worst of it. 

I'm actually doing quite well, comparatively. Get lots of rest and generally not trying to do too much. Still having good days and bad days.

Otherwise, well it's been a good holiday so far. Gifts given and received. A fine feast... Juno is becoming quite adept at cooking turkey these last couple of years. Used to be my task, but she's taken over. I still have to carve the bird though... because, sure, give the big honkin' knife to the guy who can barely see straight for fatigue. :) 

So, yeah, on the whole it's been a good week. 

Onward to the New Year!