This was my last week of work. As such, it marks the end of nearly five years working in the BI department and the beginning of something.
I've got to say, for all that I have complained about my job, they were very good to me this past year+. They supported me and encouraged me but were also honest with me. They let me decide when I was done and they've supported in that as well. It wasn't always great. It wasn't even always good, but I leave with my head held high and feeling that - at the end - it was good.
Now starts that "something new" part. I've come to realize that I really have been pushing myself into the ground and then pushing myself to go further. It wasn't good and it wasn't successful. Now, I start figuring out how to live in my current reality. Now, I start figuring out how to move forward.
I have ambitions. The first of these include finding that new balance... that place where I can get through a day and do things while still respecting my current limitations. Beyond that, I'm going to write. I'm going to paint my minis and do some other art. I'm going to study and learn new things. I'm also going to work on my mediation and honing my mind. The biggest problem I have right now is the dreaded Brain Fog. I need my brain, so it's time to start working on new ways to use it.
All in all, while I was genuinely sad to leave work (I know, shocked me too), I am feeling really positive about the future.
Onward
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