Week Ending 2/22

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I don't know. This week just feels like it's been rough. Still having trouble with waking up too early. Muscle aches are bothering me. 

Last couple of days, I've been feeling really overwhelmed. Like sensory overload, driving me toward wanting to scream and throw things, which I can't do... and then the effort of holding back just makes me even more overwhelmed.

On the positive side, I've managed to get a fair bit of writing done on Wyrd Tales and I've carved out time to paint minis. The good/bad of that is that I have goals for both of those things and that adds to the sense of being overwhelmed. No matter how much I do, I still haven't hit those goals yet. I need to back off and give myself some grace. They're hobbies, not obligations.

Yeah, all in all, not a great week. I feel like I'm trying very hard not to fly apart, which I could do at any moment. 

Breathe. Just breathe. 

I can do this.

Onward

Week Ending 2/15

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This has been a rough week. I couldn't seem to get a full nights sleep. I kept waking up way too early... like 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning. On the one hand, I had a couple of days where I managed to get things done despite getting up so early, but for the most part I've just had a lot of really tired days. Today is really the first day I managed to get a good nights sleep and wake up at a reasonable hour, so that's a positive sign. 

Not much else to report. I've been watching Outer Limits and surfing the internet. (Do people still 'surf the 'net'? Is that a thing?) 

Anyway, quiet week. Hopefully I'll sleep better next week.

Onward

Week Ending 2/8

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Not much to report this week. The vaporizer is helping me sleep, so that's good.

Other than that, I discovered The Outer Limits on streaming, so I've been binge watching old episodes of deeply weird sci-fi.

Finally, J and I managed to get in a game of Age of Sigmar this weekend. 

All in all, not a lot to report but a decent enough week.

Onward

Week Ending 2/1

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So, let's see... the winter storm has come and gone (for now at least). We got a lot of snow, which shut down the roads around here for a couple of days. My guys were stuck in the house for the front half of the week, which I think threw off any hope of me or the cats figuring out this semester's schedule for a while yet. Otherwise, we weren't hit that hard honestly (touch wood). The power stayed on. We have heat, phones and internet.

On the downside, I am having a hell of a time sleeping. I think the light bouncing off the snow (we still have mountains of snow) and the dry air are ganging up on me. I sleep for about an hour and a half and then get up, have a big drink of water and have to get back to sleep again. So, I've been even more, more exhausted then usual. The muscle aches from the new meds don't help either.

Last night, J set up a humidified in my room which I think helped me sleep a little better.

I'm also realizing that I've been stressing out about things and I need to put them down again. As I write this, I find myself thinking that I had so many things to deal with around mom's passing that I got used to dealing with things. I know it's been months since the memorial. It's all pretty much done. I think I might just be flailing around looking for the things I "need to do next." There aren't any. J has been running the household successfully for years now. She doesn't need me bugging her. 

I just need to put that weight down again and focus on my health.

I can do that.

Onward