Week Ending 9/28

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Feeling better today than I did this time last week, though not a whole lot... It been an up and down week. 

I got a lot of writing done on Wyrd Tales. I'm very near the end of writing my current story that brings with it a drive to finish. I'm about 6 chapters ahead of what's published and maybe 2-3 chapters from the end. So, that's good...

On the down side, I've been having a lot of brain fog and I've been crashing hard. It's frustrating, especially having something I really want to do and not being able to do it.

In other news, we've been experimenting with artificial sweeteners, so I can have a little something sweet from time to time. We discovered monk fruit, which is pretty good. Juno was able to make a cheesecake with it that tasted very much like my old cheesecake. It was terrific to have it again. 

Of course, there's a downside. It's that kind of week. Turns out this brand of monk fruit is mixed with something called erythritol, a sugar alcohol, which is fine expect that in some people (me) and in large enough quantities (like lots of cheesecake over the course of a week) it can cause some pretty nasty abdominal pain. Yesterday wasn't great. At the same time, once it wasn't horrible. I mean, yeah, I was in a lot of pain but I knew why and I knew I would get over it. So, despite the pain, I was actually feel pretty positive about life... which I haven't been for a while.

Honestly, I've been feeling really down lately. I'm just trying to keep going.

Onward

Week Ending 9/21

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I feel terrible today.

Pretty good week, actually, but I've been having trouble sleeping. It finally caught up with me today. So, I'm resting. More later. 

Tomorrow will a better day.

Onward

Week Ending 9/14

Hey, it's me... 

So, I don't talk a lot about current events, but this week is something mom and I would have talked about. 

I could say a lot of things but after thinking about it, what I want to say is this - empathy is important and violence isn't the answer. Life isn't a video game and we can't just kill the bad guys.

I keep remembering a scene from 12 Angry Men... 

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mild spoilers 

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Toward the end of the movie, a racist juror goes off on an angry, racist rant. One by one, all the other jurors, even the ones who sided with him on the case, stand up and turn their backs on him. No one says a word. No one gets angry. They just stand up and turn away, until the racist realizes he's alone... no one agrees with him, no one will even listen to him. Finally, he just sinks down into his chair and goes silent. One by one, the jurors take their seats again and carry on, almost... but not quite... as if he had never spoken. Because they remember what he said, and they remember that they all rejected it.

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We did that once, as a society. We made being a racist, misogynistic, bigoted jerk socially unacceptable. We stood up, turned our backs and refused to listen. We set about building a better world instead. 

Now, the racist, misogynistic, bigoted jerks have forced their way back. They demand our attention. They are working to tear down our better world. 

We don't have to let them.

We can each work to make our corner of the world a fairer, kinder, and more loving place. We can refuse to let them shape who we are. We can continue to build our better world. 

Onward

Week Ending 9/7

Hey, it's me...

So, after kind of a rough week, I finally realized that I just wasn't giving myself enough grace to recover from last week, which was really, really draining. 

It's dumb, because intellectually I know that I need to give myself time to recover but in reality I just keep pushing and end up driving myself into the ground. 

So, yeah, I finally decided to let myself rest and feel hugely better for it.

Another downside, I didn't have a chance to watch another movie with D this week. Though he did say he watched Kpop Demon Hunters on his own and really enjoyed it, so that's something. 

We'll see if we can do better next week. 

Onward